what i write, says what i am...
what I write, says what I am...

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I can memorize one whole speech, but ask me to speak in front of a lot of people, now that's a different story.. xD @ 8:59 PM
I mean, seriously, I'm not that much of a confident person... I can memorize but i just can't remember a single thing i memorized when i get to the front. It sucks a lot. But it's just the way I am, it's how God created me. I can change that though, by being more confident and by not thinking about what other people think.(which is really hard.) I don't know, but there's really something in me that makes me think about what other people think about me, if it's negative, or if it's positive. No matter what it is, i just care too much about the people around me, that it now bothers me. sometimes i'm not even appreciated, so what's the use of it??.. The fact that i lack confidence and care too much is really irritating me now.. T.T
 


my God
will always be there no matter what happens...